Feel what you don't want to feel...

When You know
You have a thought to ignore...
The thought.. you didn't recognize the worth of...
At the right time...
The thought...... that would have been...
The most serene....
The happiest moment in your life...
But...
You know it when the moment is gone...
Probably because the moment is gone...

But the same thought....
Though equally supreme and divine...
Cannot be tolerated by the mind....
It does not want to have it....
Because the thought is just
The result of sublimation....
The source of it is no more....
Only the essence..
Spreading in no particular direction..
freely... slowly... steadily...
No support.. nothing to hold on to...
So afraid...
because it has nothing to fear... nothing to lose...

The mind wants to be free from that...consciously
It remembers what it needs to forget...
And goes through the hurt again..
And again....
Being oblivious of the consequences...

Because the rules don't apply to the origin...
A thought is genuine...
Because it is from the subconscious...
And it's no justice to suppress it...

The rules apply only when the thought
Has surfaced...
And when the mind has gone through....
All it wants to avoid..

A Paradox...

Probably..somewhere beneath....
It wants to go through all that...
But consciously.....
It doesn't want to feel...

So is there....
Really a choice..
For what you want to feel...
What you want to go through..
Or what....
You don't want to go through....